I’m a people pleaser. I don’t like disappointing people, which is why I’m kind of noncommittal sometimes. When someone asks me if I want to do something that I probably don’t want to do, I say ‘maybe’. I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings. I’m starting to get to the point where I’m getting tired of not giving straight answers, but the look of disappointment in someone’s eyes stabs me.

Being a pleaser also makes me do things I would otherwise choose to not do. On a scale from 1 to 10 on how much I want to do something, I will do a 3 or 4 for someone so as to not disappoint them.

At work it drives me to get things done. I had a meeting yesterday where I had to tell someone how long I thought it would take to complete their project. I told them two to three months, and the look they gave me sucked. Granted, it’s not going to take that long, but pleasing them makes me want to get it done that much faster.

I don’t know if it’s a spiritual thing or a personality thing, but sometimes it’s annoying. I sometimes admire people who just don’t give a shit, because sometimes I really wish I didn’t care about people.