I’m learning that some people are harder to crack than others. Most people are willing to be a little vulnerable in order to make friends. Once they know that vulnerability is rewarding, they open up a little more to that person, then a little more, until they’re good friends.

To get to know someone, usually it means exposing yourself. Each step in a friendship means exposing yourself a little more. I think that every person has a emotional barrier that is the breaking point between friend and good friend. Probably there are lots of little and big barriers.

In one of my friendships, I feel like I’m stuck, but I want to go deeper. I’m starting to think that I have to reveal more of myself to learn less than I reveal. It’s frustrating. I’m starting to think that I need to make a big move to get anywhere. Maybe it’ll work; maybe not. But stagnancy is lame.

Why do I want to do this? I guess I see some of myself in them, and I want to help. Maybe I want to feel less alone. Maybe I want the rush of going out on a limb. I like solving puzzles, and this puzzle is difficult and somewhat personal.

I’m not sure if I’ll be able to get up the courage any time soon. Maybe I’ll decide it’s not worth it.