A couple of weeks ago I decided that if the weather turned cold again, I would go skiing. I was tired of trying to coordinate a ski trip, since everyone is either really busy all the time or not really interested, so I made up my mind to go regardless of if anyone else was going or not. Last week it turned cold again, so I announced that I was going skiing, and anyone who wanted to go, could.
It turns out that one of the first people I told was Matt, who really wanted to go, too. Matt asked his brother-in-law and sister if we could stay with them, and they agreed. They helped us out a lot.
So right after Joey’s recital on Saturday afternoon, we left for Dave’s and Ginger’s place in Virginia. We got there a bit after midnight, slept, and got up early on Sunday to drive to the ski resort. We were gonna go to Wintergreen, but it turned out that Winterplace in West Virginia was a little closer, a little cheaper, and the forecast was a little better. So we went there instead. Read the rest of this entry »
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Has anyone ever asked you “How’s it going?” and you felt like you were about to break down? For some reason I just remembered a time when this happened to me. Someone looked into my eyes, and I saw genuine caring there when they asked me how I was. It wasn’t the standard passing question that people except a “Good, you?” from.
For a moment the effect it had on me made me want to break down, but then I caught myself and gave the obligatory, “Not too bad.”
I feel like it’s extraordinarily rare when someone genuinely cares about you enough that they really want to know how you’re doing. I yearn for it sometimes.
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Last week I cashed in on some credit card reward points and got a gift certificate for Amazon for some new music. I try to get new-to-me music from artists I don’t currently have, since I play the crap out of my library and I get bored. So far I have:
Feed the Animals makes me happy. It’s fun trying to pick out all of the songs he mixes, although the vulgarity actually gets to me after a while. I picked O’Riordan’s album because I had a hankering for her voice. Instead of getting an album by The Cranberries, I noticed her solo album and went for that instead. It’s pretty good. I think the lyrics are a little weak in the first few songs, but I love her voice.
One Word Extinguisher is pretty good, too. I was looking at his page on Last.fm, and someone posted something about the album being #2 on the top 100 albums of this decade. I mean, it’s a good album, but not THAT good. And definitely not ahead of Kid A. The list also has an LCD Soundsystem album as number one, which I definitely don’t agree with. So I’m not sure how much stock to put in that list. 
This weekend I spent some time alone on purpose for a change. I realized for the past couple of weeks I had been frantically trying to spend time with people. I stopped and took a breath and told myself I don’t have to hang out with people all the time to feel good about myself. It helped. I felt good about just saying no to a couple of social gatherings. My anxiety level from last week went down.
I treated myself to the Prince of Persia pack from Steam and started playing the first game. It’s fun. It’s been a while since I’ve really played a video game that wasn’t online.
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I sometimes feel the need to punish people that do things that I consider wrong. Since I’m usually so non-confrontational, the way I ‘punish’ someone is through subtle and non-aggressive ways. I tend to want to hurt people emotionally, because I feel emotionally hurt by them. In the end, I’m usually the one getting hurt more than they are.
So I decided to try to understand why I do this. Read the rest of this entry »
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Last night I went to Mitch’s to watch the super bowl. I really needed a night of acting stupid and having fun, since I’ve been so stressed out lately. I ate way too much, though. Amazing catch, Santonio Holmes.
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