Tonight was our third game of this year’s season. It’s hard to believe that this is the fourth season we’ve been playing. Some people from work came out this time that had never played before, and it was good to be able to bond with them somewhat in a way that I’ve never had the opportunity to do before.

After the game, I started realizing something about my role in life. I’m a facilitator. I’ve always felt the need to make sure everyone is having fun and feeling comfortable. I enjoy encouraging people. I’m a people pleaser. This comes out the most during an ultimate frisbee game, since I feel somewhat responsible for everyone, being the co-captain of the team. I believe I’m starting to get an inkling of what role God wants me to play; what I was designed to do. It’s a nice feeling. It means that there’s a reason for the way I am after all, which I guess I always knew but had a hard time understanding.

I’ve heard that guys connect to people by doing things together, while girls connect by talking. I don’t know how universally true that is or whatever, but I definitely bond over shared events and outings. Maybe that’s why I’m so devoted to showing up whenever there’s a planned gathering. In fact, I sometimes see others’ lack of enthusiasm to hang out as a lack of friendship. Part of it also is that I don’t want to be left out, since I feel like I avoided people for so long. I still do sometimes, of course. We’re all complicated people.

It was a good game tonight, and good exercise. Now it’s time to relax and watch tonight’s new episode of House.